I wan change, well i am changed.

Life is full of changes, all one needs is enough courage and willingness to change. Very true, but is our life just depends on us ? This is a big question which pops up in my mind. I am not self dependent. My individual decisions are my thinking, Its not the others think. My life depends on others decisions, choices, when other are stubborn and unwilling to change, It ends up in sad note.

Even though i am focussed, i am helpless, because its not individual who can change. but it needs change in the minds of others.Its difficult for others to change, because their understanding, needs are completely different from me.

All decisions in life does not go correct, but that does not mean we think our first decision is bad, lets not decide further on this, and leave it to people we trust to decide. Its like sacrifice the self.

I read a fwd few days back -->

Horror gripped the heart of a World War-I soldier, as he saw his
lifelong friend fall in battle. The soldier asked his Lieutenant if he
could go out to bring his fallen comrade back.

"You can go," said the Lieutenant," but don't think it will be worth it.
Your friend is probably dead and you may throw your life away.

"The Lieutenant's words didn't matter, and the soldier went anyway.

Miraculously, he managed to reach his friend, hoisted him onto his
shoulder and brought him back to their company's trench. The officer
checked the wounded soldier, then looked kindly at his friend.

"I told you it wouldn't be worth it," he said. "Your friend is dead
and you are mortally wounded."

"It was worth it, Sir," said the soldier.

"What do you mean by worth it?" responded the Lieutenant. "Your friend is dead."

"Yes Sir," the soldier answered,

"but it was worth it because when I got to him, he was still alive and I had the satisfaction of hearing him say....

"Jim...I knew you'd come."

Moral: Many times in life, whether a thing is worth doing
or not, really depends on how u look at it. Take up all your
courage and do something your heart tells you to do, so that you may not
regret not doing it later in your life........

I was never a believer of luck before, but somewhere in my mind says. Luck is being available at the right time, in right place, meet other persons in their right time. Well when i said started believing in luck, and realization means i am not lucky :-( ...

God give me enough strength, when needed the most. Because i foresee the need. :-(.

Is it that i am trying to fit into the system called society which lays its own rules and regulations. All i have is what i see in me, a jackel which exists in group, or a cheetah which believes in self.

All I want to change, but in turn i see i am changed by system, where people are reluctant, and reject you. Or its just the fear of rejection changes you.

* Note - Blogged in confused state. hope to be normal :-)